Lazy.

Its 12 noon and i'm so lazy for school. I don't have any class today. I just need to submit this yearbook thing. Nooooooo

I have so many thoughts going inside of head. I want to rest :(

Void

I don't know what to say anymore, but I do know what to do.

Never had this feeling before, and I know that I don't deserve that kind of treatment.

To you:

Thank you for everything, for being a good friend, for helping me out, for accepting me for who I was before. But now I know what your priorities now, and I'm not one of them. I'm not demanding for attention but I was hoping you would be different. Bird of the same feather flock together right? I want to blame you, but it would be unfair. Sorry, I was selfish, inconsiderate and all. I was going to change things, but this had to happen. I guess there's a reason why.

Well, here's my goodbye. Take care. I love you

Thought.

I don't know why it bothers me that you're sick.

I think I really care about you

but, i don't want to care.

Tiktok

When to Ortigas early this morning, I was so scared of being late due to traffic somewhere around Greenhills. Man was I rushing to the Century building near the Linden Suites wearing a skirt for my interview. Good thing I arrived just in time, exactly 8:00 Ha! God loves me. So this guy, Jesse was my interviewee. He a bit old by cute! Haha. I was cam-corded during my whole interview and I was shaking. It kind of freaked me out, but since its a part of the whole process, i had to deal with it. I really wanted to get in. But the shifting they offered me was only for night shifts :( Hopefully, there will be a morning shift. I pray to God. I see myself working there maybe a year from now after I graduate., or maybe after a couple of years. I really have no idea what to do yet, after i graduate; should I get my second degree? or should I study abroad? should i look for a job? Hell, Im not yet ready. It feels like the world is too big for me. I mean, its just that, my experience, its just not enough.

I pray to God for the Design People. Its a place where I could really see myself :) Hopefully! Please Lord :)

Lost

Save me

I can't get out

I have to escape

Too many voices

I can't concentrate

I'm scared

I don't know where I am

How do I get out?

Please help me

Dying

Because God loves me. I can die right now.

Slacking or Working?

I've been looking for an internship for quite some time now. And finally, I've found one already! I loving it already even if I'm not doing much yet.

The people I'm working for are incredibly Awesome! Their so cool and plus, they give us free lunch! Lunch allowance I guess. Like last time, they cooked Sinigang with taro and shrimp. It was actually new to my taste since the sinigang I usually eat is filled with pork and vegetables. I plan to try cooking sinigang using their recipe! Yey

But there's only one slight problem, well you know I'm kind of deaf, and with their low voice I'm kind of having a hard time hearing what they are explaining. Boo for me. Time to unplug the dirt from my eardrums! :)

Dreaming

I don't know what has gotten into me. But I can't stop thinking about him. Do I need to put an end to this now? Just when I know he's within my reach? kidding. waa. Im giggling. I know its stupid but this is my blog and I'll post what ever I want!

A friend of mine is inviting me to his birthday party, overnight! He told that he's going be the there! Is this a dream come true? hopefully! it's a month from now, I have to start burning! I feel so stimulated! okay gross. I just can't wait!