I don't know

For years and years I've been obssesing about my weight, how my skin type should be like or how to make my hair silky smooth. Been doing tons of research of what healthy foods to eat but nothing seems to sink in. My dad tells me that even if i drink tons of water and eat plenty of fruits i wouldn't lose weight without exercise but I never listen. Still I do more research to make me feel happy and contented. Thats all i do.

Just now did realize i was over obssesing about something I couldn't get until i work for it. Doing sacrifices is a bit difficult for me, i hate it. The fact that I can't eat a lot and other can without gaining weight, it sucks! it really sucks! but I can't do anything about it anymore, they are gifted with a good metabolism shit.

I never had an inspiration to lose weight thats why maybe I couldn't do it. i couldn't exercise for so long running no where.

I guess my inspiration should be myself. I should be doing this for no one but myself. I should be staying pretty for no one but myself to make me feel better and not insecure of others.

There should be no more excuses like im stresses, it tired or im lazy. just do it. Its time to unfreeze that time clock and make it tick again. Maybe then, ill be happy. I don't know but where ever life takes me, its something ill be ready for.